ebookland Chapter 526 Contradictory Heart
Chapter 526 Contradictory Heart
In the small villa, after Xu Zhishan took Jiang Yunhan into the bathroom on the second floor, she went to the bathroom on the first floor alone.
Before she entered the bathroom, she heard the sound of the door closing and suspected that Su Chenyi was deliberately avoiding her.
Just a moment after she entered the bathroom, she heard the sound of the door opening and closing again, and also heard light footsteps passing the bathroom and walking towards the stairs.
This further confirmed Xu Zhishan's guess that Su Chenyi not only did not dare to admit to her face to face that they were dating, but was also avoiding her.
She originally wanted to go out and catch him red-handed, but suddenly realized that she didn't want to face Su Chenyi, and she didn't know what expression she should have when facing him.
So she locked the bathroom door again, looked at herself in the mirror with a melancholy expression, and complained a little jealously.
Afterwards, Xu Zhishan leaned her hands on the sink, lowered her head, and leaned quietly against the sink.
She opened her eyes and stared at the smooth table in a daze. There was no extra expression on her face and her eyes were empty.
When she looked up, she looked at the mirror again with a sad expression, and a breath of depressed air slowly came out of her mouth.
The next second, Xu Zhishan accidentally saw Su Chenyi and Jiang Yunhan together from the Blue Lake, and the depressed mood that she had been hiding until now suddenly burst out.
She looked in the mirror, her brows suddenly furrowed, her mouth curled up in grievance, and then she started crying.
Her silent crying and that sad and unwilling look made her look even more pitiful.
Xu Zhishan stared at the mirror and cried like a little girl whose favorite doll was taken away. Her heart was also pulled at and ached.
She looks sexy and mature, staring at the unreal yet true self that seems to exist only in the mirror.
She seemed to still be the thick-skinned little girl from her childhood who liked to stick to her brothers who didn't like her every day, but was actually a very fragile and lonely little girl inside.
Although Xu Zhishan now knows that Ou Jinghuan and Su Chenyi do not hate her, she has also made two good friends, Li Chuyue and Chen Yaxin, and is no longer as lonely as before.
But she still seemed to have a masochistic tendency, and most wanted to be loved by Su Chenyi, who had once been most resistant to her approach.
At this moment, she felt that she had become the sexy and mature type that Su Chenyi would like. Looking at her still innocent and childish self in the mirror, she felt helpless and collapsed.
As time passed, Xu Zhishan's sad mood filled the entire bathroom, and the pure milky blue decoration unique to the bathroom of the Blue Lake Bay villa turned into a melancholy blue.
After a while, she looked at herself in the mirror, crying and looking too weak.
When she felt embarrassed, she finally stopped crying and lowered her head to quickly wash away the traces of tears on her face.
The cold water in the sink was flowing, and Xu Zhishan used her hands to splash the cold water on her face over and over again.
When she finally sobered up a little, she turned off the faucet, raised her flushed face, and looked at herself in the mirror again.
Her eyes were bloodshot, revealing an expression of difficulty that she could not hide, but there was still a trace of unextinguishable hope.
Xu Zhishan stood up straight, raised her hand and tapped the mirror with her index finger, and her eyes looking at her weak self suddenly became firm.
At this moment, she looked at herself in the mirror, as if she was having a conversation with herself, asking and answering herself:
"You've liked it for so long, can you give up suddenly?"
"But you can't seem to give up..."
"At worst, wait a little longer, or turn your crush into an open love? Try pursuing her boldly? Be persistent and try to seduce her?"
"But Su Chenyi may not choose you... He might still find you annoying like he did in the beginning, and if you make him unhappy, he might even avoid you on purpose..."
"Ugh……"
Finally, after several rounds of inner dialogue with herself, Xu Zhishan could only sigh helplessly.
At this moment, she raised her hand to rub her red eyes, sniffed, and began to remove her makeup leisurely.
Then, she was depressed and irritated, and the next second she couldn't help crying again, crying helplessly:
"Oh no! Nothing I do works! What should I do~
Su Chenyi, that bad guy! How could he let another woman get so close to him! Wuuuuuuu…"
This time, Xu Zhishan was not busy crying. After taking off her makeup, she remembered that she went downstairs to the bathroom. She came here to take a shower out of kindness for Jiang Yunhan's sake.
So, while she muttered softly in a crying voice, she raised her hand to untie the belt of her bathrobe and took it off.
Normally, she would be narcissistic about her good figure when she saw herself wearing a sexy bikini, but at this moment, she was in no mood at all.
Because Xu Zhishan would immediately think of Jiang Yunhan now, and think of Jiang Yunhan's temperament that was more mature than hers, and even his more proud figure that she could recognize with just a quick glance.
This made her, who was already upset, lose the energy to appreciate her good figure and could not help but sink into the idea that she was not good enough.
She quickly took off her bikini, casually played with her long curly hair, and walked listlessly under the shower.
"crash"
Warm water sprayed out from the shower head, directly onto Xu Zhishan's head, wetting Xu Zhishan's mature big/wavy hairstyle.
The water gradually weakened Xu Zhishan's disguised mature temperament, and the warm water flowed down her hair onto her skin.
At this moment, she realized that she was very cold and actually needed the baptism of warm water.
She also realized that she was in more pain than she had imagined, so much so that she ignored the cold and uncomfortable feeling in her body.
Xu Zhishan raised her head with her chin slightly raised, letting the water fall on her face, which was even paler than Jiang Yunhan's after she removed her makeup.
She held her breath, closed her eyes comfortably, and let the warm water hit her face, even hoping that it would wake her up.
Although she felt a little suffocated, she felt that this feeling was not bad. At least it was warm, unlike Su Chenyi's ice that pierced her bones and heart.