Something happened. This is not going to be bloody.

Chapter 224 Extra - Super Spare Tire - Shi Ying

There are many women around me who have their own boyfriends but are constantly flirting with those who are attentive to them.

I have always despised such behavior until Han Hao came into my life.

I know that this kind of behavior is not good, but the preference and meticulous care of the opposite sex make people sink into it, and then slowly the guilt in my heart is replaced by being taken for granted.

Maybe I am what others call a green tea bitch.

I even thought that those girls who attacked me were just jealous that I had a man pursuing me. After all, if they were in a different position, would they be able to resolutely cut off contact with him if they didn't like him? Maybe they were not as reserved as I was under the relentless pursuit of the opposite sex.

Every time I was moved by Han Hao, I thought about being with him, after all, he was really good to me.

But after each time of self-encouragement, when I see the other person's appearance, figure, conversation, and aesthetics again, I once again find that these are really unbearable for me.

I had also made up my mind to completely cut off contact with him, but I couldn't stand his pestering, and my pitiful kindness was always used in the wrong place.

Until I met that scumbag.

Later I thought I was crazy. I actually wanted to marry Han Hao with my child. I even felt that he was only worthy of someone like me.

When people feel fearless, their human hearts become an abyss that cannot be filled.

Later, Han Hao changed.

I don't know what could cause such a big change in a person, maybe he suddenly got it.

I don't know, I only know that he has become elegant, charming and well-spoken.

Han Hao is very charming like this.

I was actually also conflicted. After all, I had already gone to the police station with Han Hao’s mother. How should I get along with her in the future? But I had no better choice.

Human hearts are like this, weighing pros and cons and being selfish. Han Hao became my best choice at the moment.

Han Hao is getting better and better, and my mentality is also slowly changing. Especially after my roommate Chen Juan flirted with Han Hao privately, I knew more deeply that he was no longer the one chasing me. Now he has become Tang Seng meat in the eyes of girls.

I seemed to have become the person I once was, trying to follow in his footsteps.

We got married.

I am a person who appears to be fierce but is actually weak. The more insecure I feel inside, the more I try to find a sense of existence in the outside world to prove how important I am in the other person's heart.

Han Hao has always been very tolerant of me. This tolerance makes me sink but also makes me feel guilty.

Now we are in different places, and the other party's tolerance compared to my former ugliness makes me realize that I am indeed a scumbag.

I am very happy in my heart, happy that such a person gave me all his love. I don't know how much misfortune I have exchanged for my current happiness.

After getting married, fear starts to rise from within.

I know that the best relationship between lovers is one of growing together and promoting each other, but my progress is slow, while Han Hao has already left me far behind.

That feeling is not good, so I am afraid.

When admiration reappears in a relationship between the sexes, in order to keep the other person, I slowly lowered my posture, just like Han Hao did before.

I tried my best to please my parents-in-law, who had no good impression of me, and listened to my mother's advice to be a good wife and mother.

Although I heard Han Hao say, "If you marry me, I can't let you feel that love is nothing more than this," but my inner peace was not consolidated.

Many years later, I finally realized that confidence in a relationship comes not only from the other person's affirmation but also from one's own inner strength.

I used to be able to maintain steady pace in the pursuit of love only because I was confident in my heart.

I once firmly believed that I was a good match for Han Hao.

But now I think it is difficult for me to match the other person, so I have no sense of security.

I was afraid. I was afraid that I would become the kind of person I hated when I was young.

I am afraid that I will become the woman who waits for my husband to come back home, missing the warmth she once had in my heart.

I am afraid that I will grab the other person like a life-saving straw, hoping to maintain my current stable life and the only remaining relationship.

In fact, people like me may care too much about my own efforts.

Because when you give, you already think about asking for something in return, so the lack of inner security may be the fear of wasting time, the fear of being left alone in middle age, and even more the fear of burning all your love.

But when you think about it, what can be eternal?

Stars will explode and planets will be destroyed.

After my daughter was born, all my focus was on her. The repressed admiration in my heart and the feeling of striving to improve and not wanting to be abandoned gradually faded.

I even thought that if the other party had other intentions in the future and we divorced, I would get a lot of living expenses from my daughter, which would be a guarantee of life.

Sometimes I despise myself, but that's just who I am. I'm not so upright, and I'm not the kind of person who selflessly dedicates myself to others.

The shock of Han Le'an coming home with his child and girlfriend completely overturned my three views.

I even thought about it from beginning to end, wondering what unscrupulous things I had done in my life to make my child become like this.

I didn't kill anyone or steal any property. Would something like this happen if I had a few more friends? If I can't accept something, my spouse probably can't accept it even more.

My mood at this moment is very similar to how my mother-in-law felt when she was angry about Han Hao and I falling in love.

That evening I went to my mother-in-law's room. She was in poor health but conscious.

The relationship is also being cultivated. After living and getting along together for so many years, we have long since faded the barriers we once had and have become a family. Especially after my parents and father-in-law passed away, I hope my mother-in-law can live a long life.

I sat on the chair and looked at my mother-in-law and said:

"Mom, Le An found a girlfriend and gave birth to a mixed-race child abroad. I haven't told Han Hao yet. He has a bad heart and I'm afraid he can't handle it. Now I understand how mom felt. You don't know the kindness of your parents until you raise them."

I saw my mother-in-law looking at me with a gloating smile. I couldn't help but say:

"Mom, please give me some advice, what should I do about this?"

I heard my mother-in-law say slowly:

"How can parents change their children? Children and grandchildren have their own blessings. I was the same as you are now, but aren't we a happy family now? Let the children decide their own affairs. Who can be responsible for whom for a lifetime? People of your generation, if a machine is broken, you have to throw it away, if a person is wrong, you have to replace him, but you don't know that there is no destiny, but you can get along with each other."

I nodded gently, then reached out and held my mother-in-law's hand. Her eyes were very bright and her gaze was very warm.

After I talked with my mother-in-law, I felt much more relieved, but I still didn't express my opinion. I had to keep testing Han Hao's attitude, otherwise what if my husband couldn't accept it?

I still overestimated Han Hao's ability to bear it. If I hadn't prepared some quick-acting heart-saving pills, he would have been so angry that he would have died. It was only after experiencing death that he was able to let go of the matter of his daughter.

A few years later, Han Hao and I sent my mother-in-law away.

My grandson has been growing up with us, and I only felt relieved when I saw him get a girlfriend and get married.

My life may not seem honest to outsiders, but I am not a saint, nor am I a plant.

If there is an afterlife, I hope I can meet the right person directly without so much frustration.